Birth of Death Chapter 1 (cover)

Birth of Death Chapter 1 (cover)
7.5 x 9.6"
mixed media on paper
Marius Black
2009

Birth of Death is one of my ongoing novels. I still currently am writing it and would independently publish it soon. It's the story about Death being able to experience a life of his own, kind of like Meet Joe Black but with more sense. 
 

In a way this is something I've been doing sometime now and have produced some artworks that come along with the chapters I release. And here is one of them, I was making the story at a very depressing state of my life, I was working as a call center agent against my wishes as an artist that should be living off of my art but since reality is not what you want it to be unless you had the will power to do so. 

All that kept me sane there was having to bring my sketch book to work every night to doodle and ink some stuff.  As well as writing and making stories. You can see there on the art that that's how miserable I felt and even felt death's presence with me or at least wished it upon me to just end my life right then and there because I was so depressed. 

Thankfully I manage to wake up and quit my job instead and faced my problems. I don't have a monthly job right now that pays as much, but man oh man I love how I can just spend time on my artworks without the fear of a sales quota or the people I have to put up with at work. It wasn't my place to be there, it's not anyone's if you ask me. That's why they pay you so high because it's your life they're buying. 

That's how I felt, that's truly what I went through. I say pursue your passions even if you fail, try again or at least look for some other job that would make you feel complete, not depressed. If you like your call center work then it might be for you but if you don't, I say get out of there. There are other jobs out there that can pay for your bills or instead, just don't live that high maintenance life you want or pretend you have, buying shit you don't need but your soul starves of its true calling. Don't sell your soul for money. Give it all away for something you love doing.